Saturday, September 25, 2004

I AM the new Victor Meldrew

Feel absolutely awful. Cold getting too old to sit in front of computer into the middle of the night without my cardigan. Put the heating on before I went to sleep and wole up to dessicated lungs. Delirious as I tried to do laundry today.

Victor meldrew is a character from a tv comedy programme, who is full of incomprehension at the inexplicably unhelpful thingsd that can happen as one approaches retirement age. Felt very Victor Meldrew as I rested in my sickbed when the kids next door decided to wind up the pets, and than play football against the fence while blasting out their stereo.

Hopefully by the time I am living the fabulous lifestyle again, these early posts of despair and self pity will, be so far in the back of this blog, that no one will bother to dig them out to read.

Have learnt though what shapes the blogs of others though. Most of what I said in my last post is potentially libellous. Told ex that I had started it and he wanted to know the name and to decide the picture I put in the profile - 'the nice one with short hair.' A blog does put you in the position of a journalist. How can you reveal your sources, when the sources don't know they're sources, or sauces. Which is why, I guess, most blogs are comment as opposed to reportage. I so want to change that. Field trips to the mall to scout for stories?

Spose problem is, my social circle has been having such interesting times, transplants, suicide attempts, court cases, new bath lifts, that my life has become Dull !

I feel so ill!

My first posting

Well I know nothing about computers so this is gonna go great. I'm so old that computer studies at my secondary school was studied from text books only. Also can I state now that I am not a Californian teenager, and no discussions on the topic of Britney spears will be entered into. Also I am passionately apolitical, know nothing of stocks and shares, and can't vote in the upcoming presidential election.

What is my typical day?

Woke late. Chipped some clothes from the top of my mountain of washing and shoved them into the washing machine. Ex turned up, after seeing fairly camp doctor, who we share. Said Doctor informed him that he will have to give up his 'African medicine' before he will recieve the psychotherapy he's been referred to. This after I got lectures for YEARS about stiff upper lips being the cure for my 'madness.' Obviously just ahead of my time. We go out for brunch and I eat more than I have in the last week. Finished off with a huge black coffee.

Discuss friend, who thinks I am standing in the way of ex's future happiness. All because I don't like him doing coke at the drop of a hat in front of me.

Came home on caffeine high and madly tidy up the place.

Washed pet 2, who is yet to be convinced that I am not trying to drown her. Now looks extermely fluffy and is demanding toffees. Forgot that I unplugged my refridgerator to plug in hair drier. Looks like I'm defrosting the freezer now. Sit out in the garden and realise garden is nearly dead from lack of watering. Check ebay and find I'm on my way to spending two weeks income before the first weekend is even started.

Mad dash to see my psychiatrist, who I havn't seen since before August. Do they have special package deals for mental health professionals. Why do they all go away in August. Suits me, court case between close relations versus distant relations, family reunions after 30 years, and the dusting off of a few skeletons have kept me busy this summer. Anyway I get 5 minutes as I'm late, the building is closing at 5.0pm etc etc.

Come home and lie down before I can face taking savage brutes 1&2 out to the local park. Old lady yesterday claimed they bit her, doubt if they could fit one of her toes in their jaws. Immediately called on mobile/cellphone by distant relation, trying to contact offspring, who is extremely intelligent but won't email.

Go round to ex again, (picking up a theme here, are we?) to watch tv programme. Ex exhuasted by long call from new co-worker who has burbled on about how welcome ex has made him in new job. I suggested an 'e' may have been involved. maybe they have just changed his anti-depressants. Who knows? Friend's sibling turns up, who ex has had extremely sublimated 'scene' with, even though sibling is 'not that way inclined' married with children' and lives literally on ex's doorstep in tiny housing complex.

Come home and ring mother, via her ex, but who is fortunately too tired for more revelations of how superior I come across, and how negative I am. (Sensing another pattern?)

Go online, and spend more money on ebay that I don't have, but will have to find. Having spend hours yesterday downloading music on pc, sound suddenly cuts out on yet to be paid for pc. Discover to my horror that pc has million more cables coming out of back of cpu than old one. Move screen, sound returns. Wow this learning curve is really going somewhere. HTML here I come.

Realise I havn't turned the heating on, while sat at screen, now have cold.

No idea who will read this. Is there a market for bitter musings. In my defense, desperately need a holiday. Knew that once Pet 1 and pet 2 turned up, I would finally get invites. So Far it's been Marakech, Paris and the states.

All ready shut out of 'hello' account due to firewall. seems that was my last chance too, so no pics here then.

Well least I can read it. Did I remind you about the Britney spears comments?